a to z: d is for doubt (as a result of ADHD/OCD/anxiety)

 

Doubt, as the result of ADHD/OCD/anxiety. Ever experience it? It’s those times you’re not present, obsessing over your thoughts, and too wrapped up in your feelings/emotions to think clearly, leading to wondering…
  • did I close the garage door and turn off the stove?
  • am I missing an important meeting (with who knows who?)
  • did I forget to do something so important that I forgot what it was?
  • am I actually qualified enough to do that presentation I agreed to?
  • am I a shitty Mom for occasionally choosing “me” time over family time?
  • did I miss the subtle nonverbal cues during a conversation, indicating that something I said upset my communication partner?
  • am I making the right choices in life?

My list is endless, which, to me, indicates my doubt is endless. Strangely enough, though, I have never felt myself to be, or thought of myself as, a doubtful person. I wonder why this is?

to me, this is what doubt looks like – colorful spinning gears

Maybe because doubt is subtle.

Compared to the inexhaustible mind/body chatter of ADHD, the uncontrollable obsessions of OCD, and the uncomfortable level of panic with anxiety, doubt is minute. And maybe self-confidence can overshadow doubt (and maybe even anxiety to a degree). And maybe optimism plays a role… maybe optimistic people look at doubt as a reason to focus, delve deeper into self-awareness, and develop positive strategies. However, it seems the word “doubt” is perceived as negative… just try searching for clipart/images/photos of doubt.

And now I’m doubting doubt. Does doubt actually exist? Or is doubt just a word that describes a common occurrence resulting from a variety of other more easily felt and describable emotions/feelings?
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19 thoughts on “a to z: d is for doubt (as a result of ADHD/OCD/anxiety)

  1. Fascinating discussion ….. I’ve never given much thought to doubt which of course doesn’t meant I don’t experience it cuz I do .. Big time sometimes… Then it mysteriously passes. It’s kinda a funny word too with a funny spelling??!! I think it’s like a wave washing over you— sometimes knocking you out and sometimes just a splash that sort of refreshes you . I may or may not give it further thought…

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  2. Okay … Let’s see what D means to me ….. Feeling a bit down in the dumps for no particular reason. Even more interesting since I had such a high last night at our university ‘s Scholarship banquet where students and donors can have diner together and chat It was a lovely evening and I was asked to say a few words about my scholarship—- it went great and many said it was informative touching and delivered so well — I was proud and happy

    So why today down in the dumps?? Perhaps that’s an exaggeration — I think I’m more tired and resting up for another big event on Sunday…. Tsunami story festival!! That will be sooo exciting yet hard work too . Then I have a break till the chamber event on astronomy which is in August. I’m soo fortunate to have these community events of which I play rather major roles and enjoy the interaction with people very much!

    On reflection I see I am not exactly down in the dumps but more on the edge resting. I think it’s always a bit nostalgic when something good comes to an end …. Like vacations or celebrations. Emotions are powerful and can make me soar and fly and also plunge and crash—-

    Well I think I’ll now move on and vegetate a bit Mom

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  3. I mistrust those who have no doubts. It’s just a part of human nature. Anyone who is completely sure of themselves and their place in the world just is lying either to everyone around them, or to themselves. My humble opinion. 🙂

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  4. I don’t just doubt… i know I am hopeless at much of the above. i am renowned for forgetting meetings, even if they are due to take place in my own house… I turn up for meetings on the wrong day… I forget I have asked people to dinner and they turn up bottle in hand to find me sprawled on the sofa in my dressing gown… I know I miss conversational ‘clues’ and even the point of entire conversations whilst my blood sugar is low. Believe me, doubt does not exist when you actually ARE doing all these things! I’d come very firmly down on the side of doubt being non-existent in the face of reality! Lol!
    Liz – my A-Z is at http://www.lizbrownleeoet.com (animal facts and poems, and stuff about my assistance dog.)

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  5. What a thought-provoking post! Like you, I’m usually skeptical when someone says “Oh, I never doubt myself, I’m too positive for that”. It’s like, “Yeah…you keep telling yourself that…” 😛 When it comes to second-guessing, though, I think people are a little less ‘ashamed’, so to speak, to admit to it. The very word ‘doubt’ has a pretty negative implication, so it would make sense that people are more susceptible to ‘second-guessing’ instead 😉

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