Doubt, as the result of ADHD/OCD/anxiety. Ever experience it? It’s those times you’re not present, obsessing over your thoughts, and too wrapped up in your feelings/emotions to think clearly, leading to wondering…
- did I close the garage door and turn off the stove?
- am I missing an important meeting (with who knows who?)
- did I forget to do something so important that I forgot what it was?
- am I actually qualified enough to do that presentation I agreed to?
- am I a shitty Mom for occasionally choosing “me” time over family time?
- did I miss the subtle nonverbal cues during a conversation, indicating that something I said upset my communication partner?
- am I making the right choices in life?
My list is endless, which, to me, indicates my doubt is endless. Strangely enough, though, I have never felt myself to be, or thought of myself as, a doubtful person. I wonder why this is?
Maybe because doubt is subtle.
Compared to the inexhaustible mind/body chatter of ADHD, the uncontrollable obsessions of OCD, and the uncomfortable level of panic with anxiety, doubt is minute. And maybe self-confidence can overshadow doubt (and maybe even anxiety to a degree). And maybe optimism plays a role… maybe optimistic people look at doubt as a reason to focus, delve deeper into self-awareness, and develop positive strategies. However, it seems the word “doubt” is perceived as negative… just try searching for clipart/images/photos of doubt.